Is it normal to cry and become anxious at night?

well, I'm not a specialist or anything but i know that I've gone through a lot and made it out the other side OK. We are human and we will make mistakes. you cant let things like that consume you or you will never reach your goals. my answer to you is, no. its not normal. but maybe its necessary? maybe all this sadness is an opening to you to realize your situation and an incentive to force yourself to make that hard, drastic change. just because things are rough doesn't mean things are bad. just let yourself go. don't worry about everything (easier said than done, believe me i know) but what i would do is focus hard on the positive in your life. don't let the fact that you don't have a man in your life get you down. focus on the love for your son. i would give anything to experience that kind of love. no man can love you like your son can, and you can never love any other man more than him. just always keep in mind that you are the only one holding yourself back. you are the only one that has control over you. push yourself to become better and you will. i hope my answer helped. God bless you and your family:)